Vnexa Muse

Goodness does not consist in abstention from wrong but in abstention from the wish to do wrong; evil is to be avoided not from fear but from a sense of obligation.

I figured out what I want to do in life. I want to make people have genuine, warm smiles. Even if I struggle to make people smile for the first time its okay with me. Besides, making people smile would make me smile.

The one thing I dislike the most about breaking up is that you have to let go of the other relationships you’ve created with other people. We all say, “it doesn’t matter, we are still all friends,” but is that really the truth? We are all friends but we don’t ever it kick it like we used to. I hate when it’s like that because me and a guy aren’t together anymore. I hate that just because we aren’t together means we can’t all hang out. I mean I guess it is weird if we were to all hang out especially if I’m seeing someone new but then I guess that means you really weren’t my genuine friend to begin with…because if you were my genuine friend you’d be happy for me and for your friend. No? I don’t know. I don’t know if I’m just being stubborn or something. I do miss my old friends though. I miss Magnificent. I miss the WOLFPAC. I miss my old friends and all those good old times.

Magnificent; These people were probably some of the best people I’ve ever met in my life. They are a set of people who I know would do good for people, who would be great husbands and be amazing friends. I remember almost every memory with these crazy people. Every dish we ate, every conversation we had, every shot we took and every girl they’ve talked to. I remember all the tears, all the laughs and all the crazy drives. Those crazy nights! I always made sure everyone had their seat belts on. Lol. I remember once, Dustin knocking out but I still belted him up! I remember once, Meng and I had a conversation and I had said, “I’m 16 and I’m at a college party! I feel so cool!” haha, snaps those were the days. I remember when we all went to ValleyFair and I sat in the very front of the roller coaster and I recorded everyone! Oh man, our faces! Lol! These definitely were not moments…these were definitely memories. T_T

WOLFPAC; Man I miss my stupid brosifs. All the stupid jokes, that dumb monotone voice we all always made and all of the times we spent together playing volleyball. I remember always trying to help the fools out with getting girls, always giving them advice and always telling them what not to do. Not too many memories with the brosifs but I definitely love them to death and if they ever needed anything I’d definitely always be here. T_T

But I guess…you win some and you lose some.

takeanadvil:

I’ll wait till you realize what you’ve done wrong. 

And I’ll wait till you realize what you haven’t done right.

I hope you realize all of this soon, because I’m tired of waiting. 

If you haven’t heard their “racist” song here is a link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_18FpzTZic

Fucking babies, Stfu. I feel no way offended by this. Why? Because it’s true. Duh. We got like 30 people living in one house and most of the little girls get pregnant at 16 and have 7 kids by 23. Get on with it people. It wasn’t racist when I said it but it’s racist now when Steve-O says it? How stupid. I mean I know there is a huge difference from when people of the same race sarcastically insult each other then from people of different races sarcastically insulting each other. Hmong people can’t get mad because it is true. That’s like a certain kind of black person being mad because we say they are ghetto. This isnt being racist you morons. It’s called stereotyping. Being racist is to discriminate other races by the color or their skin not by the things they do. And even the “hater” gets stereotyping and racist mixed. They automatically assume that all white people are this or all black people are that.

For hundreds of years the corrupted minds of the human kind has existed. Why are you trying to change something that will never go away.

Especially this “Hmong racist issue” it’s so stupid and you only give those people the attention they want.

Prom is supposed to the most fun and crazy high school memory. It is known for being the night people conceive, lose their virginity or pass out drunk. It is the night where they dance with their date beneath the strobing lights. The night people say, “I love you.” it is the passageway to college from high school. Prom is the most important memory from high school. Girls spend hundreds of dollars for their dresses, nails and shoes. Guys spend hundreds for their tuxes, dinner and flowers. It is a night for all friends to gather and realize that high school is ending…

I want to go to prom but I can’t go to prom. I want my prom to go as I want it to. I want to have a beautiful dress, the perfect nails and a stunning face. I want it to be memorable. I have never had wonderful high school experiences so I wanted to make this one be my first and last memory in high school. This is pretty much my senior year because I will be going full-time PSEO next year.

I sometimes wish…that I didn’t have to be such a grown up…I sometimes wish that I could be 16. I wish I didn’t have to worry about paying my bills on time and I wish I didn’t have to worry about getting a better job. What is my job? My dad pays me to be a good student, a good daughter and a good person. But what do I get? 25$ a week. I know that’s better then nothing but I can’t even do anything with it because I have to pay for my phone which is 60$ a month and 20$ goes to my savings to pay for my car insurance which is 200$ every 6 months. I sometimes wish…that I had lots of friends in high school that I’d grow up with. That I would have gone to college with.

I sometimes wish that…my mom and dad were married and together.

When I sleep, I hope to dream about what it would be like…

Good night.

Why is there a higher power in which we choose to believe in? I say fuck the bible, fuck the praying. I say fuck the chanting and fuck the paper burning. If religion is whats gonna tear my family apart I say fuck it.